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suddenly have this overwhelming sadness about shooting
whos going to save us =(
and im really angry about nus because i did actually want to shoot
now im almost very sure that i cant touch my gun ever again =((
and there are so many things i havent done

i really feel very bu gan xin
because i really do feel that i can achieve much more =(
rah. im still thinking abt nationals aft so loooong
because shooting is really very very very important to me.