everybody forgets about this blog but why am i still updating now i don;t really noe.
i hate sec3 life.. i hate school.. i neva hate sch so much before.. every morning i wake up i would always force myself to bath. eat. n go out. this is so tiring.. although i did the same things in sec2 but sec2 seem to be so nice... when i look back on those days.. i will feel e life now is so meaningless.. everyday is study and study.. for 2 weeks.. i don;t know wad the teachers are saying.. they seem to talk n talk n talk n i neva hear anything at all.. now the only thingy that i look forward to is perherps at night when mi n shiangming n eli conference.... even cca sucks like hell too... i hate her.. she sucks... it would be so much better if e no.# is shiangming or somebody else... maybe i should blame myself for neva quiting e comp... some seniors are so #### too... dey sucks.. but my trainers were good... dey r nice.. but sometimes i dun really like when dey ask mi n her to coordinate... how can i look into her face and smile? nOOO!! this is impossible i tell you... nvm.. peanut left out by us too.. sometimes i wonder.. is it so wrong for us to hurt so many people?? first time is devil.. now is peanut.. next one is going to be who? mi? i hope not... i felt so left out by class too.. though some people are really frendly n nice.. but i really feel irritated by tat 2 gals in front.. mi n them are so different.. i hope ppl don;t think im like them... dey suck too... my eng sucks too.. i tink is e lowest in class.. O.O... nvm la.. i don;t care.... i wan sch to end quickly... i hate sch la.... i hate rv... i hate myself for doing so well in my end of year exam.. if not i would be in the same class as eli or shiangming.. life would be so much better.. im quite demoralised by mock comp.. i dun feel like doing case anymore.. jianzhen say im v blur.. nvm lor.. anything.. im nt suppose to be no.2 anyway... as well as let those despos take e position which dey wan so much... my life suck